3rd Quarter - DONE! Critique went really well. As with everything in life, it wasn’t without its struggles, but I worked my ass off. When I was feeling my lowest, getting into the studio, working on a project - these are the things that kept me going. I love what I do. I was proud of the work I showed in critique and got super positive feedback. In January, I didn’t even know if I was any good. Less than a year later, what other people think is no longer part of the equation. I have somehow become a photographer. It’s not something I do just for fun, not something I might want to be; something i would like to be. This is what I am. This is what I do.. Now, I am so flawed - as we all are in our own ways (especially us creatives - but that’s ok. In the past 10 months, I’ve learned something every day about who I am, sometimes not great, but i love it. i get stressed every day but in a good way - I want to become better. I make mistakes every day, see how I can improve every day. I accept who I am, perhaps seeing who i am truly for the first time - and work daily to overcome obstacles I’ve come to know as a way of life over the past thirty years and have had to begin the difficult task of retraining my brain (this is hard). But for this, its worth it. Everything about this weird, frustrating, confusing and unorthodox school, and all those I have been lucky enough to meet because of it, has drawn out aspects of who I am that, when combined, propel me forward and unleash creativity thats been trapped inside me randomly floating around in some seemingly unrelated fashion for as long as i can remember. Im creating and damn it feels good. I couldn’t be happier with my timing to come here. Every adventure I’ve had in the past 5 years and all the hard times before that have gone into my work. Anything I create from here on out is in part a product of the experiences I have had and what I have taken from them. its not easy to face things about yourself that are hindering your success. Ive had to do that, say them out loud, (if there’s time) and quickly figure out how to adjust; how and what I need to do in order to continue to move in a direction that is positive for me. This will never stop. but i don’t mind at all. I’ve spent 15+ years analyzing, procrastinating, dreaming, doubting, searching, experimenting, learning, moving, etc blah blah blah… I know what I want. I know who I am - i learn more every day of course, and surprised at what I discover about myself time and time again, but I welcome discovery because it means I’m living. even the shittiest of days have something to offer if you choose to use your intellect and take something from it. “i can’t get out of bed. Ok, for shits and giggles, lets do it anyway.” and those baby steps continued for 6 days. NOT easy, but I was productive because what I’m doing matters to me. I love it. This is how I know I am doing what I was meant to do. this past week was hard but worth it. I’d rather struggle short term to do what I love, than have to rely on a plethora of instant gratification mind numbing solutions because things just seem to big to tackle. Over the break - I am shooting! gotta get out and experience atlanta. over the break I’m singing! over the break I’m playing! music’s gotta stay over the break tunnel vision remains in tact. the goal is far in the future and the journey is good.